Title: Years Gone By Author: Suz Date: 31 October - 2 November, 1999 Authors Notes: This is in response to the challenge set by Rach - "write a fic incorporating a song *not* from the WR CD" so this is it, the song, sadly, isn't mine, it belongs to Faith Hill, Steve Diamond & Dennis Morgan. And it's called "Let Me Let Go." And I thought I'd be clever and use more than one song, the other one is called "Inside a Broken Dream" it's not mine, but I dunno who owns it. And the other one is "Forever" by the Eurythmics. Disclaimer: I went and stole the toys of Julia for a while… ner, ner!! So deal with it... But they don't belong to me or her [not fair, is it?], they actually belong to Mr. Mac and the team at the Nine Network Australia… not us… ? ~*~*~* Years Gone By Suz ~*~*~* He sat at the grave. Mournful, downhearted, just generally unhappy. She was gone out of his life, forever. Never coming back, and that was hard to come to terms with. Another tear [another year] rolled down his cheek. One of many that had been spilled over the years, for her. Her memory, her lost opportunities. Her lost friendships and loved ones, whether she realised them or not. It was depressing. It was sad, like always. Like every year. Like every tear. ~~ You've been gone for so many years now, so many. Too many. Way too many. And I'm still not coping and I can't understand why. I've said goodbye, you've said goodbye. But you're still haunting me. You are still there in my heart. You're still with me every step of the way. With me always. ~~ I thought it was over, baby We said our good-bye's But I can't live without your face Goin' through my mind ~~ I don't think that anyone will ever forget you Rach, ever. You were such a big part of so many peoples lives. And none of us will forget you. Not one, no one. How could we, your smile, your eyes, your walk. You're here with us, always. We will never forget that, never. Never. Never. Never. Never is such a strong word. I'll never see you again. Never. Never. Never. ~~ In fact, not a single minute Passes without you in it Your voice, your touch, memories of your love Are with me all of the time ~~ You're in my dreams all the time. I think of you. I dream of you. Of your face, of your smile, your dimples. I just need to see you walk down that hallway once more, grinning, laughing, talking. Just being there. I stand there to look for you. Waiting for you. Turning around to check if you're coming. I must look like a fool. ~~ Turn the pages of a broken dream Smiling faces, have they ever seen Empty hallways? Will they ever end? The fool again ~~ Rachel, I love you so much, I will always, so will each of us here. Helen, Tayler, Gavin and *him.* We both loved you, him and I. For the same reasons, for different reasons. But we both loved you. Neither of us will ever let you go. We want to, we need to. To move on with our lives. To grow, to learn to love again. Will you let us? ~~ Let me let go, baby Let me let go If this is for the best why are you still in my heart Are you still in my soul, let me let go ~~ Maybe you never wanted to be with me. Maybe this was your way out. You tried to say no, but was it too hard. I talk to you so much, people must think I'm batty. I don't care, I still love you. I always will but I need us behind me. I love you, but I have to move on. ~~ I talked to you the other day Looks like you've made your escape You put us behind, no matter how I try I can't do the same ~~ Would you hate me if I got over you? Probably not. Maybe I'd hate myself, maybe I'd think I'd forgotten you. Maybe… I don't know what I think, or what I feel half the time. I'm so confused, even after all this time. It's just not fair. A long time has past and I've moved so many different places, been down different roads. But I can't let go. ~~ Let me let go, baby Let me let go It just isn't right, I've been two thousand miles Down a dead-end road Let me let go ~~ I still dream of you. All the time. Each time I do, I wake up crying. I love you. Wait for me? ~~ Inside a broken dream I cry Is love the reason why? Inside an empty room I'll stare (We don't think we can make it) At love that is not there ~~ The world is so strange without you in it, did you know that? It's just not the same, no one thinks so. Who would? How could any of us? I'd feel too bad, I'd feel guilty. Like I'd be forgetting you. I had to leave there Rach, to many things reminded me of you. Actually everything did, even the people. ~~ The lights of this strange city are shinin' But they don't hold no fascination for me I try to find the bright side, baby But everywhere I look, everywhere I turn, you're all I see ~~ Rachel, I know that I have to let go of you. I've been so many places. Trying so hard. To let you go. Just to let you go. To let me be free. ~~ Let me let go, baby, won't you Let me let go It just isn't right, I've been two thousand miles Down a dead-end road ~~ I love you Rachel, I always will. But I'm letting you go, out of my mind, but not out of my heart. Not out of my soul. You'll still be there, forever and always. ~~ Oh let me let go, darlin', won't you I just gotta know If this is for they best, why are you still in my heart You're still in my soul, let me let go Let me let go, let me let go ~~ It's taken me a long time, a very long time. Forever. Forever is a long time. But now I've let you go. After all these years have gone by. ~~ Forever Now that you're gone Gone forever But the day goes on Forever ~~ Never I'll forget you. Forever I'll love you. THE END Feedback please? suzie@standard.net.au END NOTES: You're probably wondering what the hell I'm on after that… nothing I swear!?! It kinda got a bit confusing for me to, but look at it as just something that someone would say, you can't go back and erase that can you? Oh, and is it Jack or Frank? Eh, it's for you to decide!